Friday, June 30, 2006
What have i done. nowadays its just hard for me to get things right and cheer myself up. I'm just speechless. k just be straight forward, i guess i have no more love kinda feelings for ruwen anymore ever since 2years ago but that doesn't mean i hate her or don't care about her. yay. i still wanna care for her hope that she is doing fine. yup. When i say " i don't know" i really mean it. i'm not trying to be harsh or scarred ya. When i come to a point where i realised the feelings that i've been " i don't know why" for the passed 2years was the feeling of care and corncern, i really get damn disappointed with myself. sorry. T_T
Towards huiwen i know her inside feelings towards me but i just don't want to face it. she is a nice girl but. maybe i'm just not good enough for her. i'm just not the one. yay. i won't advoid her as she is a friend of mine =). Hope that times really can help change every problems that i'm facing now. Sorry. T_T.
Jolene. a girl who i fell for without me myself knowing it. After i realised that i like her, the feelings for her it is already rooted in me. its hard for me to tell her how i felt as a friend of mine like her too. To be honest, i really hope they can be together as i know the love that he can give her is never less compared to mine. Its kinda heartbreaking but thats me. What i really wanna know is that she is happy not sad. If he can be the one who shower her with love and she is happy then i will allow time to bring away the love that lies within me. There is a letter i wrote for her, hope that there will be a day whereby she will get to receive it.
To end this is really hope everything will turn out well. haiz. i'm such a failure sometimes. T_T.
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